Sunday, May 18, 2014

The fragility of the world's strongest woman!!

Just finished a great weekend with my in-laws. Yes, I am one of the lucky few who has great in-laws. They are really wonderful people y'all, salt of the earth, whatever that means. Anyway I love watching my mini interact with them. The love is just so obvious between mini and them. I know I know, BARF its all lovey dovey, but its true. Anyway it got me to thinking about myself. I was always a very loved child. I don't mean this in a snotty way just in the sense that I am an only child and only grandchild so yea I thought my ish didn't stink for the better part of my childhood. Motherhood seriously changes you at your core being. Like seriously I always had all these people around me that loved me SO much and I loved them but you don't really comprehend the fragility of it all until you are a parent. To love so much and at the same time realize that you have no control over your heart out there walking around, trying to jump, becoming its own person. Motherhood has made me realize that the people that love you will always love you but will not always be around. While this is a gut wrenching, tear jerking, disgusting idea/feeling it has made me want to work hard to be present in the love that people give me. At the same time its strange that I am encompassed by the delicate nature of it all but still the strongest person in the world. Hows that you ask?..? Well like I said...motherhood. To save my baby I would fight a lion, a tiger and a bear. (oh my) and I would win! Okay I might not win but I would put up a hell of a fight and give them wicked indigestion for days! Good luck finding Rolaids in the forest!

Anyway I got of track here. Point is be present in peoples love and having a kid makes you a sappy, weepy, anxiety ridden, bad ass!