a few things to remember

The world will tell you to only be pretty but don't listen, please be smart.
When a boy says your ugly, remember how much you love to read.
When a girl you thought was a friend tells everyone your secret, remember your love of nature.
When you don't get invited to a party that "literally everyone" is going to, remember you are LITERALLY your families heart.
When you don't make the team, remember I'm always on yours.
When you feel like giving up, remember they don't say third times a charm because first attempts are rarely successful.
When you don't know where to go, remember you can always come home.
Its obvious I don't need to tell you to remember that I love you.

The fragility of the world's strongest woman!!

Just finished a great weekend with my in-laws. Yes, I am one of the lucky few who has great in-laws. They are really wonderful people y'all, salt of the earth, whatever that means. Anyway I love watching my mini interact with them. The love is just so obvious between mini and them. I know I know, BARF its all lovey dovey, but its true. Anyway it got me to thinking about myself. I was always a very loved child. I don't mean this in a snotty way just in the sense that I am an only child and only grandchild so yea I thought my ish didn't stink for the better part of my childhood. Motherhood seriously changes you at your core being. Like seriously I always had all these people around me that loved me SO much and I loved them but you don't really comprehend the fragility of it all until you are a parent. To love so much and at the same time realize that you have no control over your heart out there walking around, trying to jump, becoming its own person. Motherhood has made me realize that the people that love you will always love you but will not always be around. While this is a gut wrenching, tear jerking, disgusting idea/feeling it has made me want to work hard to be present in the love that people give me. At the same time its strange that I am encompassed by the delicate nature of it all but still the strongest person in the world. Hows that you ask?..? Well like I said...motherhood. To save my baby I would fight a lion, a tiger and a bear. (oh my) and I would win! Okay I might not win but I would put up a hell of a fight and give them wicked indigestion for days! Good luck finding Rolaids in the forest!

Anyway I got of track here. Point is be present in peoples love and having a kid makes you a sappy, weepy, anxiety ridden, bad ass!

We do it for the kids!

So I fell of the wagon! Not that wagon, the blogging wagon. Y'all know how life gets in the way sometimes. Got busy, had a migraine, was tired, excuse, excuse, and more excuses. It really doesn't matter but I am writing now. So mini and I bought some pumpkins today. I figured it was close enough to Halloween that they might not rot. Mini got crazy picking them out she was so excited to get "Punks" as she called them. So we got a big one and a small one. I brought them home with the best intentions of being crafty and carving them up all neat like. Well bout two seconds in to cutting the top off the small one I realized it's BANANAS what we do for our kids. The carving kit I bought was useless so I whipped out the butcher knife planning on making quick work of the small pumpkin. After I almost stabbed myself, numerous times, I gave up and just told mini we would decorate hers on the outside and let daddy help cut up the big one. As I almost carved up myself I was reminded of when my mom almost cut her finger off trying to cut up a frozen chocolate Easter bunny I INSISTED on eating when i was around 4 years old. The things we do for our kids. Anyway we painted hers and I let her pour copious amounts of glitter on it. I doubt she cares that it wasn't carved I mean she's 1. Either way we had fun making a mess. Not as much fun cleaning it up. Her bathtub now has a glitter ring but just like all these crazy things we do for our kids, totally worth it!

Sorry for bragging

So tonight's post is just me bragging. Sorry It's happening. So we draw outside with sidewalk chalk, a lot. We always start by writing my mini's name. We spell it out as we write the letters. Then we point to mini and say that's your name. Okay so today I did the whole thing and gave mini the chalk.

So yeah my 17 month old drew a W and said "me"!  I am so proud! Okay crazy mom moment. Sorry people that just happened....by the way her name starts with a W, just to clear up any confusion.

Open mouth, insert foot. Sticky subject

Before I had my daughter I was one of those people. You know one of those people who thought stay at home moms had it easy. To be fair my mom always had a job when I was little. I got my first job at 15 and had one pretty much from then on. I never knew a lot of stay at home moms first hand. I thought the idea sounded like a dream. Stay home all day, sleep in, watch t.v., shop, play with the kiddos, maybe do a little housework here and there, but for the most part easy peasy. I worked up until I was put on bed rest. I had planned on going back as soon as my 6 week maternity leave was up. Well other things happened and by the time I was well enough to return my hubby had gotten a position where I would be able to stay at home. This is where I open my mouth and insert my foot!!!! Jeeze people I am on 24/7. As I have said before I blow at housework but I am never at a loss for something to do. It is exhausting! Another aspect that I didn't really think about is that its a thankless job. When you work out of the home you can see a pay check for your hard work, you can get promotions, awards, or at least end the work day not sticky. I am not complaining though cause even though the work is hard and the hours are long my paychecks come in sticky kisses, silly giggles, and funny faces. So I think its hard both ways, staying home and working outside the home. Being a mommy is difficult no matter how its done! Now to go wash all this sticky off!

Know your place!

Ok so let me preface this by saying I am a pretty private person. Yes I enjoy showing off my mini on Facebook,  and occasionally I comment here and there but for the most part I keep my business locked down. One of my favorite lines from a song is " if you never say your name out loud to anyone they can never ever call you by it". To me it says, if people don't know your opinions (for example) they can't throw them back in your face. Anyway what I am getting at is that this blog is a huge departure for me. It may not be profound but it is personal. Most feedback has been positive which I greatly appreciate. Just like anything in life some positive reinforcement can really amp up your drive. With that said just a drop of negative can sour the whole pool. Now don't get me wrong I am not some delicate flower that must be sidestepped lest all my petals fall. I'm a pretty tough cookie. Still this blog is like an open wound I'm letting everyone examine. So don't put salt in it for fun. The negative feedback is partly my own fault, for I choose some friends simply because the are snarky A-holes. I should not be surprised when they act like it. I may not have all my commas in the right place but my heart is, can you say the same? Rant complete.

Rain and Scorpions

It's a rainy day in Bama y'all. Cloudy, rainy, and down right yucky all day long. Sometimes days like this are enjoyable but not today. Boredom is setting in over here! My hubby is snoring on the couch and my kid has taken her pants off and is running around mooing like a cow. I'm just focusing on not raiding the pantry and laying waste to every chip, cookie, candy and snack we own. Oh and the margaritas. I'm not much of a drinker especially after my bowel resection, it's hard on the tum tum y'all, but we have good tequila and mixers....it's calling my name. I guess I'll wait till bitty is in bed.
Another thing bout the rain is it drives the bugs in. I do not like bugs! I know circle of life, ecosystem, blah blah blah, NO I'll have none of it! I have killed 5 scorpions, in the house, over the past couple of weeks. Yeck!! Did u know scorpions are in the arachnid family? Well they are a spider's skanky cousin. I abhor them! They got pinchers and a stinger, really is all that necessary?!? I think not! I'm petrified of stepping on one! This is what happens when you live in the woods.
I'm going to publix soon to get us a delicious home made meal. Yea so what if it was made in someone elses home (or grocery store). I don't really want to venture out in the rain but I want to cook even less! Alright going to put on my rain boots. Watch out for those scorpions they are nasty little critters!